Hi there family and friends!
So
this week....ha ha ha ha....sometimes in life you just have to laugh and
move on. I fell down the stinkin' stairs in our apartment and am quite
bruised but alive. Ha ha I feel like someone beat me with a stick! I've
been feeling battered lately with everything that has been going on. I
feel like I have been banished as a english speaking service missionary
and I'm with all of the other sickies. I have been just feelings sorry
for myself and i threw a huge pitty party the other night after I fell.
First my ego was bruised for being banished, then my body, and now my
spirit. Why in the world must I go through these beatings?? What is the
purpose? I could have my ego, body and spirit trashed at home. Why here
on the mission? Isn't it supposed to be easier here? Ha ha ha...nope.
Life is just as hard here, if not harder because I don't have my mom and
dad to call every other hour to ask for help. I am learning that I have
to "call" Heavenly Father and ask for help. Prayer has become so
special to me. I am so grateful that I am able to FEEL not alone, even
though I can look around and actually be alone. I have a testimony of
angels. Heavenly Father promises us the help of angels as we go through
our lives. It mentions in my own patriarchal blessing that I will always
have the help of angels through out my life. Elder Nelson said that we
have the right and privilege to call to the other side of the veil and
ask for specific people to help us. I have asked a couple times for
help. And I can FEEL their presence so powerfully. I know that although I
have felt very alone lately physically, I don't have to be alone
spiritually. I received an email from Mike about picking reasons to keep
going while I'm here. It has been so hard to keep going sometimes. But I
know why I am out here. I am here for families. Not only to help bless
my family at home, but my future family, and the families I will help
bring into the fold. I know that families are so important to Heavenly
Father. They are essential to His plan and they were created to help us
endure this life. When I become discouraged I think of my family at
home. I know ya'll have faith in me and pray for me daily, I can feel
the prayers. Thank you for all the support and love! 
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Bruised Everything
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